#35

Everything's different now.

I need to control my emotions.

#34

Everyone needs something that gives them a sense of control.

Academicians, knowledge.
Rich people, money.
Politicians, influence.
Junkies, drugs.
Poor people, hope.

Something like that.
I believe I need two things simply, sanity and silence.
Not sure where I'm going with this.

End.

#33

To be an introvert,
Seldomly voicing out my opinions.

They didn't care to listen, they don't want to. I care to listen, I want to.

I open up, they close me, shut.

"You are not sensitive to others' need."

I distant myself because I naturally appreciate my alone time, when I don't have to please others. When I can be my own self, or whoever I think I am.

They look at me as something else.

Not friendly. Boring. Loner. Boring.

Dokkōdō(The Way of Walking Alone)

_Accept everything just the way it is.

_Do not seek pleasure for its own sake.

_Do not, under any circumstances, depend on a partial feeling.

_Think lightly of yourself and deeply of the world.

_Be detached from desire your whole life.

_Do not regret what you have done.

_Never be jealous.

_Never let yourself be saddened by a separation.

_Resentment and complaint are appropriate neither for oneself nor others.

_Do not let yourself be guided by the feeling of lust or love.

_In all things, have no preferences.

_Be indifferent to where you live.

_Do not pursue the taste of good food.

_Do not hold on to possessions you no longer need.

_Do not act following customary beliefs.

_Do not collect 'weapons' or 'practice with weapons' beyond what is useful.

_Do not fear death.

_Do not seek to possess either goods or fiefs for your old age.

_Respect God without counting on His help, your effort comes first.

_You may abandon your own body but you must preserve your honor.(but Health is always prioritized)

_Never stray from the way.