"Everyone I know, goes away in the end."
That's what they said, and that's what I am feeling right now. The world turn its back on me. Those that I considered friends, kind of abandoned me. Was I just a temporary person that they can use and just dispose of when they are done having fun? Or maybe I was not so good of a person? Maybe I am always going to be left by all the people that I care. Maybe it always been my fault. Whatever that I have done that made them hold grudges against me, maybe I deserved such?
Maybe the person that once told me that everything and everyone is just temporary and you'll never be always with them, is right. I guess I am one of those people that no one would bother if I am gone. It makes me so hard to accept new people. Like it is better to just close the door, lock it, and throw away the keys.
I have lost, am I never to be found? I feel the days are grey and the nights are just too long. Sometimes my eyes blurred out in the middle of the night, and I'd feel sleepy all day, and my mind would wander all over the world of thoughts I am having, I'd get bored easily and nothing seems that interesting anymore.
